Shifting My Dreams: A Journey of Healing, Reflection, and Rediscovering My Calling

June 28th, 2025

Embracing My New Path: Horses, Healing, and Nature

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After years of seeking healing through dance and chasing strength through MMA, I’ve learned that true peace comes not from applause or victory, but from living in tune with God’s creation and the calling He’s placed on my heart. In this season of prayer and reflection, I’m choosing to let go of paths that no longer serve me and instead step into a future grounded in faith, nature, and grace—working with horses, honoring my native roots, and embodying the spirit of St. Francis as a woman of peace, strength, and gentle purpose.

Finding Healing Through Dance—But at What Cost?

For a long time, dance was my refuge. It helped me process grief and pain and allowed me to feel alive when life felt heavy. But as I’ve grown in faith and stepped deeper into the woman God is calling me to be, I’ve come to recognize that my dancing was also tied to a desire for attention. I used my body to draw eyes toward me, to feel seen and validated, but that kind of validation wasn’t always positive and didn’t reflect the life I want to build as a Proverbs 31 woman. God showed me that my worth isn’t rooted in performance or applause—it’s found in how I serve my family, how I honor Him, and how I pour love into the world around me.

Why I’m Letting Go of MMA

My interest in MMA began during my marriage to my ex-husband. He was deeply involved in that world, and I thought maybe stepping into it would bring me closer to him or earn respect. But as I trained, I began to realize that fighting in a cage, inflicting pain on someone else for my own gain, didn’t align with my spirit. I enjoy staying active and challenging my body, but not at the cost of harming another person. God made me someone who wants to nurture, build, and protect—not destroy. The more I prayed, the more clearly I understood that MMA was never truly my path, but rather something I turned to in a season of confusion and hurt.

Embracing My New Path: Horses, Healing, and Nature

Horses have always been a source of peace and strength for me. There is a quiet wisdom in their eyes, a gentle power in their movements, and a patience that reminds me of the kind of woman I want to become. This new journey into horseback riding and equine training feels like stepping into the life God has prepared for me—a life that reflects grace, gentleness, and strength.

As I spend more time with horses, I feel deeply connected to God’s creation and to the earth itself. I think often of St. Francis of Assisi, who loved all creatures and prayed to be an instrument of God’s peace. His words inspire me to approach every living being with humility and compassion, to honor God through how I care for the world He made.

In this path, I also feel more in tune with my native roots—grounded, close to the land, listening to the rhythms of nature. I want to embody a faith that is not just spoken but lived out in how I care for animals, the land, and my family. This is the woman I am becoming: faithful, strong, gentle, and deeply connected to both creation and Creator.

A Message of Growth and Grace

Shifting my dreams doesn’t mean I’ve given up—it means I’ve grown. I’ve let go of paths that no longer serve the woman I am becoming, and I’ve chosen to walk forward in faith, trusting God’s plans for me. I’m excited to move into this new chapter, building a future rooted in love, grace, service, and deep connection to nature and God’s creatures.

Thank you for supporting me on this journey. I pray my story reminds you that it’s never too late to listen to God’s whispers, to step away from what no longer brings life, and to embrace the purpose He has set before you. May we all learn to echo the prayer of St. Francis—seeking to bring peace, healing, and light wherever we go.